Back Home!!

As most of you all know....I am back home! For 2 weeks now.

Leaving New York was difficult because all of the sudden my adventure had come to an end! The summer lasted a pretty long time but then when it is over the feeling of 'it went so fast' immediatly replaced all the other feelings. And flying goes so fast, before you know it, you are on the other side of the ocean. And being back home is like you never left! Everything is still the same. At first I felt so weird, because everything is fammiliar, like I know every fiber and every brick of my town but then in the same way it is like I have changed and moved on and I have to get used to it again. The first couple of days I wasn't so sure if I was happy to be back again. It was like my trip has never happened, only in my mind. And people can't look in my mind, and I didn't knew what to do with all that I had experienced.  I wasn't ready to even go back to my workplace to say hi and totally not ready to start looking for a new job, as I dislike applying and writing letters.

In the weekend I went to my grandma's birthday, she has become 100 years old! It was nice to see all my family and they were all excited to here my stories. The next day I had all of my girlfriends over at my place with some food and we watched all my video's and some pictures. It was nice to share and that they could see where I have been.  Last weekend I went to a party and to the beach with my friends and I also started working again. So slowly I am getting back in to my old life. And my friends are nice, The Netherlands also can be very pretty and my room is nice. But I feel like I am totally back into my old habits and my old lifestyle, the one I decided to leave last year because I was sick of it. I just felt terrible after braking up with my old boyfriend and not to be able to find a job after 8 months. It was nothing for me to sit at home and to feel stuck. And it still isn't right now, especially after being sooo inspired by my journey! But being back and having to start all over again without any money reminds me of that old feeling. And that frustrates me! I have the feeling that my trip has been the best thing that has happened to me! I remember writing on this blog and being confused about the meaning of it all and that I was pretty stressed during sometimes at camp and that I worked so hard. That is true and I won't forget that, but I am so proud that I did so much and that I succeeded, no matter how hard it was. I remeber at camp saying to myself that I wouldn't do it again, but ofcourse, how cliché now I miss it!  During this summer I've met so many nice people, I've seen so many places, I did everything on my own and I got so inspired. I don't really know how to process that all right now, being back home. I want to do something with it and sometimes I am unpatient and want to see result right away.

Well for now, I really want to thank all the people that I stayed with this summer. Without your genourosity I wasn't able to visit so many places. Everybody has been so nice with picking me up, driving me around, giving me a place to sleep, letting me shower - email- call-do loundry, taking me out to breakfast, lunch and dinner. And showing interest. Also all the people who have read this blog and posted comments; I wasn't always able to respond, but I did read everything and it felt very good to be supported!

I am going to continue to post my pictures and movies on this site and maybe edit some messages because I'm sure there are still a lot of stories untold. So keep checking this blog!

I hope I can make my next dream true, and that is to go back to the westcoast next summer and drive the 101 from north to south  (or the other way around) and discover new pretty places and visit the friends I made this summer who I really miss!