Me @ Westwind

I am going to tell you a little bit about how I am doing and feeling after a week at camp.
The first couple of days we had staff training, with only the supervising staff. I felt that it was pretty intens. I knew that we would have to work long and that it would be hard, but the schedule was so intens. I felt like someone took over my life and my thoughts. There was absolutely no time for personal space. We just went on and on, like a roller coaster.  I only handled it because I totally lived in the moment, I just did what we were supposed to do. Otherwise, it would be all too overwhelming for me, and I would probably cry. So I pushed all of that out. We we're simply just too busy and at night I was so tired that I immediately would fall a sleep as soon I went to bed (at like 10:15 pm)
I was happy that I could share with some other girls from other countries, the felt absolutly the same and I knew that it was normal to feel that way and that was just part of the deal, so it didn't really bother me.
Sunday we had a day off, but I had to get my CPR & First Aid training, what a bummer.
I did pass my CPR test :D! and lucky for us, there were no dvd's for the first aid part, so we had the afternoon free! That was so lovely! I went into Portland to shop with my Australian friend Possom (Nathalie). We had a lot of fun, the sun was finally shining and we had tasty snacks and bought a lot of nice stuff. We slept at a real nice host family who were so generous. I got to call my mom, shower, internet and watch a movie.
The next day (Monday june 9th) the rest off the staff arrived. We went hiking on top off the hill trough a muddy rain forest. I kept slipping all the time and I fell once and it was much fun because Flof (Roelof from the Netherlands) kept laughing at me.
I felt like the staff training was (is) far more organised and clear then the supervisor training. Or maybe that's just because I already know most of the things now, or I enjoyed my day off, I'm not shure. But I felt more relaxt and had fun.
This morning I woke up with chest pressure, I couln't breath well. We had to be ready at 7.30, bhelgh! At breakfast I decided to inform my supervisor and she advised me to take some medicine before we went on a camp tour. I took my medicine at the cabin and I fellt really stressed in my body. I started to cry because I just didn't feel well. I tried to join the tour, but just after a few steps up the hill I knew that wasn't a good idea.
I went to the nurses' office and 2 supervisors came to visit me and asked me what was wrong.
I didn't really feel sad or homesick, it was just the fact that it was all so intense and my body just had to relief that stress because my mind had no place for it. I didn't had time for any personal thinking all week and all my thinking was in English not even in Dutch. I am also used to have some hugging and personal time with my mom and friends back home and I don't have that here.
So I got to get it all out and sleep for a bit. Afterwards I felt much better, I really needed it.
Also today the schedule was much nicer, we we're free at 8 to get to know each other, chat, play music, make creative name tags, etc. Also at 7 me and the other UC's acted out a skit about how to get fired. It was definitely hilarious!
We are going to do all the camp activities this week like kayaking, archery, mud mucking, challenge court, horseback riding and overnight.
I still feel 100% sure about wanting to be here, taking this challenge and I am no really looking forward to the kids!
I know who my counselors are (3 girls) and I hope I will be a good supervisor for them!